Ang Storya ng Buhay Ko

2006-04-10T15:22:00.000-07:00

(Please change my link!! Thanks!!)

2006-04-09T08:35:00.000-07:00

Well actually di pa naman sigurado kung i-closed ko na sya. Malabo* (Ang dahilan?!? Basta saka ko na lang sasabihin!!)

2006-04-04T17:21:00.000-07:00

once an ex always an ex?!?

I guess everyone of us a may tinatawag na EX, or in others term our past lover, gf or bf, even husband or wife, kino-connect ang term na ex sa kanila once the love have been ended.

Being an ex is not that easy, totoo di ba?!! Mahirap ang first few days, weeks even months, yung iba pa nga inaabot ng years, parang ako (ehem... hahahaha). After ng break-up, yung tipong gustong gusto mo na kalimutan ang nangyari, kung bakit ba naman lahat ng memories ay parang flashback na kusang nagrerewind, di mo mapigilan or wag ng isipin, pero talagang malaki ang epekto ng pagiging ex... Ang ex ay isang taong naiwan, nasaktan, at umiyak, kahit ikaw pa yung nang-iwan o iniwanan, pareho nyo pa rin mararamdaman yung agony ng pagiging ex. Minsan pa nga para pang sinasadya ng tadhana, na pag bukas mo ng t.v. favorite nyo dalawa before ang palabas o kaya naman pag nakikinig ka ng radyo, theme song nyo pa or kanta mo pa para sa kanya ang maririnig mo, love torture ang tawag dun (hahahaha).

Iyung bang tipong you can't avoid the pains and hurting until you become numb enough... ang masakit pa nito kung kailan naka-overcome ka na sa stages ng pagiging ex, doon mo naman siya makakasalubong sa daan, makakasabay sa sasakyan o kaya naman bigla siya tatawag sa iyo or magtetext, wondering kung bakit niya kailangan gawin pa yon kung kailan you've learned to live without him/her.

That's the irony of life.. for me being an ex is not that bad, kasi think about this, maybe di pa talaga siya yun the one that God prepared for you, he/she may hurt your feelings but be thankful coz he/she's the one that will lead you to the person whom you truly deserve. If you're the one na nasa relationship ngayon but you felt that the love have already fade or you're no longer happy with this person, try to be brave enough to talk things out, it would surely hurt the both of you, but in reality of life you should consider one's another happiness, you'll be both called an ex but what's important is that you have set free the true meaning of love, let the both you find his/her own happiness. Everyone deserves to love and be loved in return.

Minsan may nagsabi na sa'akin na "Kung sakaling mawala man sa buhay mo ngayon ang taong labis mong minamahal, darating ang takdang panahon kapag tunay ang pagmamahal magbabalik ito kapag pwede na ang di dapat at kapag naging tama na ang mali." Kusa naman bumabalik ang pagmamahal kung ito'y para talaga sa atin di mo man ito hanapin, siya mismo ang maghahanap sa iyo. Who know's na kaya lang na separate yung ex sa buhay natin dahil may mas bigger plans pang nakalaan. Pwedeng magkabalikan ulit ang mga mag-ex kung talagang andoon pa yung pagmamahal sa isa't isa, but being an ex does not mean na you will close the door, and you'll hope for your ex to return, open the door of your heart and give other people a chance to enter your life. We should not lived in false hope kung nakikita mo nang there's no chance to reunite again sa ex mo. Let this new person na dadating sa buhay mo ang magpakita sa iyo na may ibang mundo pa, mas masayang mundo dahil ito na ang taong talagang meant to make your life a meaningful one.

Sa mga ex dyan it's not the end everything when a relationship ends, coz its only the beginning of a journey towards the one who deserves us and we truly deserves. Be happy and move on without a defeated heart. Wala lang sharing lang po (hehehehe). Ciao!!

2006-04-03T11:41:00.000-07:00

long time, no write

Hey people!! I miss blogging here huh. Hmmmmm... Sorry I haven't been updating my blogguurrr the past couple of days, well it's because something is seriously wrong with my computer, tinopak nitong mga nakaraang araw ang bulok kong kompyuter (nakakainis). So, what's been happening?!?

THURSDAY MARCH 30, 2006: (BUHAY PRINSESA) Did nothing but sleep, I woke up at about 11: 00 o'clock in the morning then ate lunch right after, watched some music video (sa myx), then eventually fell asleep, the moment I woke up it was time to eat dinner na, I took a bath and then TV again (ang tamad noh?!).

FRIDAY MARCH 31, 2006: (USELESS DAY) lazy, I woke up at around 12:00 noon, took a long bath, went to Erika's house, and then home again to sleep... (Tsktsk), woke up, ate junk foods, and then watched the di-vi-dis of the princess diaries 2 and school of rock... tapos kain ulit (takaw noh?!!).

SABADAY APRIL 01, 2006: (NAG-LABOY ANG BRUHA) Saturday was pretty normal. My friends and I went to Sta.Lucia GrandMall. We ate McDodie foods. Then we went to worlds of fun. Sumakay kami ng rides... Grabe, it was so fun talaga!!!

YESTERDAY APRIL 02, 2006: (LAMUNAN, CHUVA) it's my cousin's birthday today... and so we went over to their place to have dinner... and it was so great, ang daming food (so yummy), we had ice cream, (my favorite!! Lol) steak, shrimp, chicken barbeque, cake and pansit!! Ewan ko ba, basta bertdeyan hindi nawawala ang pansit.

TODAY'S ENTRY: right now, I feel so sad... I'm crying

2006-03-29T11:26:00.000-08:00

good side of being hurt

Masarap mainlove, lahat naman tayo dumadaan at nakakaranas nyan di ba?!? Iyong feeling mo makulay at kumukuti kutitap ang paligid, parang hapee toothpaste (hahahaha). Pero bakit when we fall and get hurt, we tend to regret that feeling?!? And sometimes we blame it to the so called L.O.V.E. Just like, "Bakit pa kasi nauso yang love na yan eh!" Well, we can't blame those people kasi nga nasaktan. But di ba dapat nga we should be thankful kasi we experienced how to love and be loved?!? To feel na ikaw iyong pinaka-magandang babae dahil sa kanya?!? And because ayaw nating masaktan we tend to do things that will make the relationship lasts and that's the good part of it.

What I'm trying to say is being hurt, sometimes can be helpful. Why?!? Kapag nasasaktan tayo we become stronger, we become a better person, nare-realize natin kung ano ung mga pagkakamali natin di ba?!? Naitutuwid natin kung ano ung dapat ituwid. And most of all, we learned from it.

Bottom line is, be always grateful you've experienced to love. Don't be afraid to love and be hurt. Coz kapag ngmahal tayo, alam na natin na more or less, pwede tayong masaktan dahil kakambal na ng love ang sakit. And that I think is a spice that adds to life...

2006-03-28T23:50:00.000-08:00

super,duper bored

I am so bored...
I am super bored...
I am super super duper duper bored...
I am super super super duper duper duper bored.

Boredom is killing me...
Boredom is really killing me...
Boredom is really really killing me...
Boredom is still really really really killing me...

HaaAaaay... Ang boring!!

2006-03-27T13:41:00.000-08:00

whuzooo, summer is here

Whew!! Oh yeah!! It's nice to be back again (hahahaha). Oh no, I haven't posting for two (2) days again... kaya naman sobrang namiss ko ito at syempre namiss ko din kayo mga loyal net friends ko (hahahaha). Well anyway, I just want to drop some lines. Hmmmm... Ating balikan ang nakaraan... (Tsktsk).

MARCH 25, 2006: (NAKAKABADTRIP ANG PC KO!! BULOK!!) I extremely hate my friggin' computer (GrRrrr... Asar*). It's too slow whenever I check my friendster account... and I can't even make a damn testimonial for my friends... Hindi din tuloy ako makapag-blog (kainis*). My computer really busted... (I really hate it!!)

MARCH 26, 2006: (SUPER, DUPER BORING) In the morning, I just stayed in our house. Doing nothing at first but after a few boring hours... I thought and use our computer. Luckily for me, I have friends who are online. So I did enjoy that time chatting (buti na lang hindi tinopak ang computer ko... lol). In the afternoon, me and my mom went to RustanSupermarket, brought some ingredients needed in making Lasagna!! (Yum, yum, yum. hahahaha).

TODAY'S ENTRY: (REMINISCING BOUT D' PAST) Okay, I'm lazy and I'm bored. I'm actually not in the mood to make a new entry but I have nothing else to do so I might as well make one... (Hahahaha). Well anyway, I'm having ym conference with some of my high school friends' kanina. I miss them so much. We've been talking about summer and reminiscing about the past... sarap balikan ang nakaraan, ang mga kalokohan namin noon (hahahaha). Basta ang saya!!

Hmmm... What else?!? By the way, a billion thanks to those who showed me their comfort, love and, care on my previous entry. Hay... sobrang na-appreciate kong lahat ng iyon guys!! Pasensya na huh.. kung minsan talagang madrama ang buhay (hahaha). Thanks talaga!! Love you all!! So, I need to log out na... nagugutom na ako (hehehehe). Mamaya ako bisita sa mga blog nyo :) Goodbye!!

someday my prince will come

2006-03-24T19:47:00.000-08:00

new layout again

Hello loyal web friends!!! (lol). So here I am letting you know I'm okay (hehehehehe). So many things had happened this past few days and I want to share a lil bit of it with you guys (Tsktsk)...

MARCH 22, 2006: (PINK IS MY COLOR, LET IT SHINE ON ME) Afternoon: We (Erika, Jhenn, Meg and I) went to SMegamall. Did a little shopping (hahahaha), at bumili na din kami ng gift para sa Birthday ni Stephanie. And went straight to Meg's house. We hung out, had pizza delivered and met some of Meg's cousins... cool people huh (hehehe). Then watched some di-vi-dis while munching on pizzas (hahahaha).

MARCH 23, 2006: (MADRAMA ANG ARAW NA ITO) Itong araw na ito... I'm not really in the blogging mood (lol). I am so tired and emotional. My eyes are sore and I just want to cry. I don't know why. Asus, ang drama talaga ng bruhang lola nyo noh?!! (hahahaha).

TODAY'S ENTRY: (OH NO... ISA PANG MADRAMANG ARAW) I really feel like crap. Tears are falling down mah cheeks again, and honestly, I'm tired, and once again, I am having a hard time breathing (huhuhuhu). Pagod at Sawa na ako sa buhay ko. Why can't it just end?!? HaAaay, kunwaring masaya, but the truth is.. hirap na hirap at sawang-sawa na akong magpanggap. Gusto ko nang sumaya ang buhay ko, no more pain, no more tears, no more sadness, no more depression and no more feeling low about myself!! That's what I can't accept. That I feel low about myself when I know I shouldn't. What's worse is that I have no one. Pakiramdam ko nag-iisa ako (huhuhuhu). I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know how I should feel. I'm just hating mah life right now (huhuhuhu).

2006-03-21T23:59:00.000-08:00

sharing blah-blah's

Friends. Enemies. Love. Food and God. These are some of the few people/things that are part of our everyday lives. Hmmmmm... Friends are the people who make us stronger. They are the ones who boost up our confidence whenever we are down. They are hte ones who would treat us like sisters/brothers. They are the ones who would talk to us even if they have tests to study for.

Enemies are the people who make us stronger also. They are hte ones who make life more exciting. They challenge us and give us something to think about. They are the ones who tempt us to sin.

Love is the something that each of us need. Love is amazing and addictive. It rocks our world but breaks us apart. But love is what we need. ALL WE NEED IS LOVE. And that's true, without love, we wouldn't be her. Jesus would not have died for us if love wasn't there. Love is present anytime, anywhere. We can feel it but we can't see it.

Food is really really a must. We need it, yeah. I can't live without food. I really love food. And finally, God. God created everything. He is everything. It's really sad that we only thank him once in a while; we should be thanking him every second that were alive. Because each second is a big thing...

2006-03-20T22:18:00.000-08:00

pissed, pissed

HuwaaaAaaah... I typed an entry twice. As in two times. Each time I submitted it, it got lost -- The page cannot be displayed. That got me pissed off - you know how long my entries are, and I did it twice!! (GrRrrr... I really hate it!!! Aarrgghhh, Nakakaasar*). Nakakabadtrip tuloy!! Huhuhuhuh (crying*)

2006-03-19T20:08:00.000-08:00

Bakit?!
Bakit ipinadama mo sa'akin ang saya?! Kung ika'y mawawala rin pala,
Bakit pinaasa mo ako?!? At inuwi mo sa ganito...

Bakit may "Hi"?! Pero may "Bye".
Bakit may "I love you" Meron namang "I hate you"

Bakit dumating ka pa?! Kung sabay aalis din pala...
Bakit ang dami mong alaala, na patuloy pa ring nakikita...
Bakit sa tagal-tagal ng panahon, sa aking isipan hindi ka naglaon?!

Pero ngayon wala ka na at di na maibabalik pa...
Paano at Saan ako magsisimula, Nang bagong buhay na wala ka...

Ito'y nilikha ng inyong lingkod. Ang nag-iisang Unpretty Gurl sa buong mundo. Ang Reyna ng Pighati, kalungkutan at pagluha. Walang iba kundi ang nag-iisa at nagmamay-ari ng pahinang ito. Ang nag-iisang AKO... (nak ng ipis, ang drama*)

2006-03-18T23:51:00.000-08:00

super duper boring sabaday lol

Mwah!! Hello Guys!! How's it going?!? I just wanted to make a little post before I go to sleep. Well nothing super interesting going on with me right now, I actually woke up earlier then usual and saw the sun (hahahaha), took a bath, ate cereal and one slice of bread with ham and cheese for my breakfast, watched some music video (sa myx), and then went online (Hahahaha). Tapos hayun nakachat ko si Jaja (My pakner in crime. nyajajajajaja), we had a loooooooong conversation, grabe ang kulets namin pareho, wala kami ginawa kundi tumawa. Para kaming mga baliw (hahahaha).

Oo nga pala, I'm going to go to morong on March 25, 2006. Next Saturday na iyon, manonood kami ng play nila Kym. Kasama ko sila Patty and Danneth. Excited na ako (hahahaha). Anyway, that's all for now. Just a small update (lol). Ciao!!

2006-03-17T23:40:00.000-08:00

nothing to serious happened today

Hello friendship!! (Lol). What's up?!? Well anyway, what's been going on in my life today?!? Absolutely nothing has been going on in my life lately... Okay, I haven't been well kanina. I woke up 3:00 o'clock in the morning with a damn chronic headache. (GrRrrr... Kaasar*). I had two Biogesic(s) and got back to bed. However when I woke up at about 5:00AM, my headache was still there (GrRrrr... I really hate it!! Arrgghh!!). That shows how much Biogesic doesn't work for me (Ahuhuhuhu... Kawawa naman chuvaness Lola nyo). Hmmm... Scql has been okay. We had a long tst in two subj. (ENG & ACT) my gawd, dumugo ang utak ko, (hahahaha... just kidding :p). After scql... we (Erika, Meg, Steph, Jhenn and I) went to SMegamall, pinilit lang nila akong sumama sa kanila para maglaboy (mga BI... hahahaha PEACE*). Pero okay na din kahit paano ay nabawasan ang pag-iisip ko sa mga problema ko sa buhay. Then got home at around six (6:00pm).

Oh by the way, thank you to those who showed me their care, hugs and love on my previous entry. Pati na din sa mga nag-tag. I can't tell you guys how much I appreciate your kind and thoughtful words. Sorry guys kung di ako madalas makadalaw sa mga blogsites ninyo. Dami kasi scqlworks eh. Daming problems... (sad face*) trust me, if I had more time... I will visit on your site. Promise!! Okay!!

I know this is a pretty short and senseless post, but I gotta go coz' I have tons of scqlworks and some other stuff to get done today, so I've gotta get started on that. I'm out. Have a good weekend everyone. I love you all!! Bhubyerrrss!!

2006-03-16T22:58:00.000-08:00

The Death of Unpretty Gurl

I've just been wondering, when I die... would you cry for me?!? Would you miss me?!? Would you feel as if you lost someone important in your life?!? (Ang drama noh?!!). I know it's as if I'm making myself seem so great here, but I just wanted to know. I just want to know if people are going to go visit me and bring me flowers when I've passed away... Now I'm also thinking who would be writing a eulogy for me...

Hmmm, how about that?!? Write me a eulogy; let's see who makes the best one. Comment/Send it to me okay, we should make some changes before I die. Who would be brave enough to do so?!? (Probably none)

It's sad to think about it, but I'm not afraid to talk about it. Everybody will die eventually, and it's the way of life, so bakit ako matatakot di ba?!? Besides, death is only the beginning...

It would be better to die in my sleep...
but not alone.

I want to be able to say goodbye to all my loved ones, and prepare myself for the next journey... Whether it be reincarnation, or a life of eternity with God Himself.

LAYOUT FOR SALE

Hmmmm... heto na pala iyong mga layout na ginawa ko at ibinebenta sa halagang (P 150.00). Ang paraan ng pagbabayad: Maari po ninyo ipadala sa LBC/POST OFFICE sa address na: (#35 Frank Furt St. Mercedes Executive Village Pasig City). Maliban pa doon sa isang layout na inyong mabibili, may isa po akong layout na ibibigay sa inyo ng LIBRENG-LIBRE (as in libre!! parang buy1 take1, oh di vah, hahaha). Para makita ninyo ang kabuuan ng layout at kung paanong ayos/arrangement ang inyong gagawin sa mga layout maaari lamang pong i-click ang mga larawan... para makita ninyo ang finished/sample ng mga ito. At kung ikaw naman ay blogspot, maswerte ka dahil kasama na doon ang coding para sa layout mo...

Kung ikaw ay interesado/handang tumulong sa iyong kapwa maaari lamang pong mag-iwan ng mensahe dito mismo o di po kaya sa aking ym: (ayeka_fujisaku)

Paalala pong muli lalo na sa mga hindi pa nakakaalam kung bakit ko ito ginagawa, ang perang mapagbibilhan ng mga layout na aking ginawa ay gagamitin ko pong karagdagan tulong sa pagbili ng pagkain at gamot ng isang matanda. (matangdang halos wala ng makain).

Abangan ang mga susunod pang mga layout na aking gagawin. Hanggang sa muli! Maraming salamat!!!

2006-03-15T23:34:00.000-08:00

feeling sleepy

Okay, I am making a quick post. Anyways, nothing much exciting has happened today. I woke up at 5ish something this morning, which is so unusually early, took a bath, and then followed mom to have breakfast. I hate having breakfast as I can't eat so much at early in the morning. Scql has been okay. After scql I hang out with my Kada. We went to Erika's Place... ate yakisoba and junk foods (so yummy* lol), after kumain hayun chis-misan naman ang napagtripan (hahahaha). It was super fun as usual (hehehe). Got home at around 5:00pm. Then went online (lol).

//EDIT//: Paalala sa'inyong Lahat

Oo nga pala plano ko palang magbenta ng layout. Bakit?!? Kailangan ko ng karagdagang kaperahan. May gusto kasi akong tulungan. Isang matandang babae (na halos puti na ang buhok) na nag-iisa na lang sa buhay (naaawa ako dahil halos wala na itong makain). Itong matandang ito ay nakilala ko lang noong mga panahong down na down ako, iyong tipong magpapakamatay na ako. Hindi ko alam kung pinadala ba sya ng langit para sa akin noong mga araw na iyon. Noong maikwento niya sa'akin ang istorya ng buhay nya labis akong nalungkot at napaluha. Madami na din syang hirap na napagdaanan. At alam kung hanggang ngayon ay nararamdaman pa din niya ang sakit at hirap na iyon. Simula ng mag-asawa kasi ang anak nito ay hindi na sya nagawang bisitahin nito. Ni wala na din syang balita dito. Kaya kadalasan bago ako umuwi galing scql ay dinadalaw ko ito at dinadalhan/binibilhan ko kahit na konting pagkain (galing sa aking allowance). Masigurado ko man lamang na matutulog itong may laman ang sikmura. Kung marami lang sana akong pera di ako magdadalwang-isip na kupkupin ang matandang iyon.

Maliban pala sa binabawas kong pera sa aking allowance, idadagdag ko ang perang mapagbebentahan ko ng layout para pambili nito ng pagkain, damit at gamot. Gusto ko lang matulungan, gumaling at makitang masaya muli ang matanda. Kaya guys wish/pag-pray ninyo na sana madaming bumili sa layout na gagawin ko. Gusto ko habang nabubuhay ako dito sa mundo natin kahit papaano ay nakagawa ako ng kabutihan sa kapwa ko. Hindi nyo lang alam guys kung gaano kasaya ang tumulong sa kapwa. Bukas ko pala ipo-post iyong layout na natapos ko na.

2006-03-14T23:29:00.000-08:00

my sharing blah-blah's

The deeper meaning of love: Sometimes, hopefully at least once in our life, the gift of love will come to you in full flower, and you will take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you: be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart. You need to know this about love, and to accept it. You need to treat what it brings you with kindness. If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. (Tama ba ako?!?) There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or assess blame. .Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning.

This is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they misunderstand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they began to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them. The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead becomes someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.

Remember this, and keep it in your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying.

You can embrace it when it arrives and gives it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from you heart of from the heart of the one you love, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.
If you keep your heart open it will come again..

2006-03-13T22:56:00.000-08:00

ubusan ng kaperahan :lol:

Warning guys this is going to be a short entry because I have nothing really to blog about (hahahaha). So let's see what did I do today... Okay, nothing to serious happened today. I woke up at around 7:00 o'clock in the morning, ate breakfast and then checked my phone. Oh my gawd, I received a 19 text messages from different people (lol).

Lunch Time: I hung out with my Kada/Barkada today (Erika, Megan, Jhenn, Ladynel and, Stephanie). It was fun, as in (hahahaha). We went to KFC (sa mega) and we had blast!!! Basta ang saya. And then we went shopping, luvit!! (Nag-bawas ng kaperahan, hahahaha).

At home: I just watched The Day After Tomorrow (pirated di-vi-dis, hiniram ko kay meg.. lol). It was good it just made me think too hard (hahahaha). After manood ayun computer naman ang pinagkaabalahan ng chuvaness Lola nyo, (adik ba?! tsktsk). GrrrRrrrr... asar kanina I can't view my blog on my computer. I have no idea why. It's so weird. KAASAR TALAGA!!

What else?!? Oh, by the way I'd like to thank everyone for all there nice comments and tags!!! You guys really lit up my sadness (hahahaha). Love you all guys!! Salamat ng maraming-marami. Hugs*. So like I said, this is a really really short entry, nothing special. So that's all for now. Bye-bye!!

2006-03-12T10:07:00.000-08:00

new layout, new entry

Wushuuuuuu new Layout!! I really like it (as in, lol); well I think it's really simple and different from most of my layouts that I've made before, pero syempre hindi mawawala ang color pink (hahahaha). Okay, last night I had such a disturbing nightmare that it woke me right up and I was pretty much up the rest of the night (GrrRrrr... I really really hate it!!). I won't go into detail because I really don't wish to even think about it anymore but eh, it was crazy. Well anyway, since wala pa kong magawa heto pinagkaabalahan ko (hahahaha).

I am not: a complete idiot
I hurt: I hurt??
I love: everyone!!

I hate: annoying people who think they're all that when they're really not, cats and cockroaches (lol)
I hope: for the best
I hear: voices
I crave: fries with catsup (hahahaha), sushi, lasagna, oreo and ice cream (nagugutom tuloy ako, hahaha)
I regret: saying stupid things especially at the stupidest times
I cry: at sad movies especially when an animal dies.. it’s so sad.
I care: about everyone
I always: crying?
I long to: get my own house, and be free!! ...
I feel alone: barely
I listen: when it's about something interesting..
I hide: when we play hide and go seek?

I drive: huh?!?
I sing: songs!
I dance: because I want to
I write: my story (lol)
I breathe: or else I'll die from lack of oxygen!
I play: the radio
I miss: Suplada Bums
I search: nothing
I learn: new things everyday!
I feel: bored and unhappy?
I know: everything!! muah hahahaha!!
I say: miss you: lol:
I succeed: at almost everything I do
I fail: math quiz..
I dream: when I sleep
I sleep: at night
I wonder: why teachers talk so much and tell us useless facts..
I want: money and new phone!! (hahaha)
I worry: too much
I have: my family and friends
I give: horrible advice so stop asking me things!! (hahaha, just kidding!!)
I fight: for what I think is right..
I wait: him.. (sino kaya iyon?, hahaha)
I need: love
I am: so sad.. (feeling empty)
I think: what I want to think
I stay: in my lonely room.

2006-03-11T23:46:00.000-08:00

very tiring day

Right now : Chatting with Mama Laine. We talk about some stuff... (Basta ang saya-saya ng conversation namin, tsktsk). Hay I really miss her!! Love you Mama Laine!! Hugs*.

Hmmmmm, so what have I been up to, not to much actually just the same sh*t, scql went pretty good. I did a lab with Stephanie, Meg, and Jhenn today in Eng. We also took an Eng Test. I made a 49 (not bad... hahahaha). I missed one, and what really s*cks is that I wrote down the right answer first, but I crossed it out and wrote another answer, (kaasar*, lol). Okay, I usually try and reply to people who have left me comments, kaya lang super busy-busyhan chuvaness lola nyo eh. Sorry guys, pero wag kayo mag-alala kapag may time naman ako, Hindi naman ako nakakalimot sa pagbisita sa mga bloggy nyo eh (hahahaha). Oh, by the way plan ko palang magpalit ng layout (hahahaha), alam nyo naman ayoko kay Hillary diba?!? (sorry sa mga Hillary fan) kaya, hayaan aga kong nagsawa sa layout nya (hahahaha), actually nakagawa na ako ng layout but I'm not sure if I like it... (lol). That's all for now!! Bhubye!!

2006-03-10T23:59:00.000-08:00

dramaness, dramaness

Here I am again my fellow blogguurrrs, thinking of what to write about, and nothing really comes into mind (lol). Maybe I'm not even supposed to be sitting here in front of my computer blogging... Do you ever feel that way?!?

Well anyway let me change the topic, around 2:00 in the morning, I was awaken by a memory that I don't even want to remember... the feeling of alone and hurt... eight months ago my heart was broken by this guy (E****), he didn't even know how much he hurt me... it was 1:00 in the morning and I was talking to my friend (Erika) and we started talking bout him, at habang nag-uusap kami I realized na tears are going down on my cheeks na pala... siguro dahil hanggang ngayon ay nararamdaman ko pa din ang sakit (Ouch*), dahil hanggang ngayon nahihirapan pa din akong tanggapin na tuluyan na ngang nasira pati ang pagiging magkaibigan namin (yeah, his my betsy). Oo masakit, nakapanghinayang at nakakalungkot, pero siguro nga hanggang doon lang ang kwento/istorya ng buhay namin. Pasalamat pa din ako't may macha-chaga akong mga kaibigan (kayo) at wabbit na walang sawa at laging nariyan para sa'akin. Salamat ng Marami!! HaaAaaay... Sorry guys, I'm being such a drama queen again... well I guess drama makes my world go round!!! Bye for now...

2006-03-09T21:26:00.000-08:00

ka-weirdo-han :p

Hey everybody!!! I hope you all had a great day today!!! Okay, I'm just going to make a quick blog today, Coz' I have tons of HW to get back to so I'm just going to let you guys know I'm alive (hahahaha). Well anyway, nothing really happened today. I woke up at around 5:40 in the morning, took a bath, ate one slice of bread, ham and mango juice for my breakfast (sooo yummy, hehehe), at pagkatapos lumamon hayun diretso na ako sa scql. Hmmm... Scql was fine, kaasar lang ang daming HW (grrrRrrr... I really hate it!! Lol).

After scql I went to McDodie to meet up with Erika, my gawd I am craving for Mcdodie's fries, at saka sa catsup nila (hahahaha), pero sa totoo lang, I am not much of a catsup fan. If not for fries, I wouldn't be eating catsup. (Hahahaha... weirdo ko no?!? :p). After that we went to nbs to buy some scql stuff (hehehe), and then we went home together.

What else?!? Oo nga pala member na ako ng PINAYTALK.NET (hehehehe), ang saya doon... promise!!! Wala lang na-shared ko lang (lol)

Oopps... by the way thank you to all the people who leave me tags and comments on my previous entry. Huwag na kayong mag-alala guys I feel much better now (tsktsk). Love you all!! Mwuahugs!!

2006-03-08T21:12:00.000-08:00

gimme some hugs, some care & some luv

I'm really sick right now; I've been coughing and sneezing the whole day!! (aAacho0ooo). I look like Rudolph, my eyes are burning, and my body is aching!!! (Arrgghh... I hate it!! Asar*). I probably got the flu. This is just sad, I can't even think straight because of the throbbing pain in my head... Kainis*. Hmmmmm... someone, take care of me please?!? I need someone to stay beside me and sing me a lullaby, and feed me, and keep me warm.... Any volunteers?!? (Lol). HaaAaaay... Sana okay na ako bukas!!!

2006-03-05T19:35:00.000-08:00

wuzho0oo... new layout

Hmmm... I haven't touched my computer for ages huh... I'm so sorry guys medyo busy-busy-han ang chuvaness lola nyo nitong mga nakaraang araw (ahihihhihi). Namiss ko tuloy kayong lahat, as in sobra. Well anyway, dahil sa matagal-tagal na din akong nawala at medyo nagsawa na din ako sa dati kong layout nagpasya akong gumawa ng bagong layie!! So here it is, featuring Hillary Duff. I'm not a huge H.Duff fan, kaya lang nagustuhan ko kasi iyong image nya dito kaya hayaan napilitan akong gumawa (hahaha).

BHU-BYEEE ASHLEE LAYIEE

So what happened today?!? I went to the Rustan Supermarket with my mom. She had trouble waking me up again, wala kasi ako scql today eh. HaaAaaay... I haven't been able to sleep until 2:20 in the morning, my gawd!! Para akong high na high ngayon (hahahaha... bangag*). I don't like going to the supermarket, but buying things for myself makes me feel better about it (hahahaha). I bought junk foods, chocolate drink, Oreo, and a Candy magazine (oh my fave mag. hehehehe). Right now, I am getting sick. My throat hurts. (GrRrrr... kainis*).

2006-02-27T21:27:00.000-08:00

badtrip, badtrip

I think this blog needs a new layout. Well anyway, I slept at 1:30 AM last night and woke up at 6:15 AM. I just couldn't sleep. For the entire day I felt I was going to drop down any second. My entire body was tired. (Hmmmmmp... Asar*).

2006-02-26T19:38:00.000-08:00

i'm soo sad.. huhuhu

All I want to do now is to cry my heart out in one corner of my room... I really hate myself, I hate my life. (huhuhuhu!!) GrRrrr... I want to die so bad!!

2006-02-24T23:11:00.000-08:00

hoooorrraaay.. i'm back

Hmmmmm... I'm bored and I've decided to start writing in my blogguurrr again... coz everyone else does. Wow it's really interesting reading everyone's and finding out stuff that you never knew... dun dun dunnnnnn... hooray I'm back. Did you guys miss me?!? (Hehehehe). Well, anyway today sucked. I was in a bad mood for no reason... (Lol: p)

Megan is okay with everything that's happened. I just want her to know that I'm here for her and one day she will find the right guy that won't make her sad and realize all that she is. What I think is that if any guy makes you cry then he isn't worth your tears... (Right?!?) because he wasn't meant to be... in other words the right guy brings you up and doesn't put you down. HaaAaaay... I'm really tired and I want to sleep and drink hot chocolate. (Hahahaha)

By the way, Thank you to all the people who leave me tags and comments here. I'll return them as soon as I have some time, okay!! miss yah and lab yah all guys!!

2006-02-23T21:15:00.000-08:00

boredom, boredom, boredom

IT IS EXACTLY 9:15 PM... It's a Thursday night and I don't have anything better to do... obviously! (Lol :p) Because if I did, I wouldn't be sitting here in front of this computer, typing non-sensical nothings into the screen... but what do you do when boredom strikes???

With my advanced thinking, I have formulated a list of things I would want to accomplish in life...

Here goes:
* travel to the moon
* buy a car & house (kung saan ako lang nkatira hahahaha)
* gusto ko maging isang singer (hehehehe)
* buy a pony, ipod, and new celphone (hahahaha)
* meet Mr.Right (after meeting Mr.Right) marry Mr.Right (lol)
* learn to use/drive: scooters, and cars (tsktsk)
* be able to travel the world
* work in a fast food joint (preferably the drive thru window)
* and... uh...
the things you can do when you're bored... I've been thinking of you... tell me, have thought of me too???

2006-02-22T15:38:00.000-08:00

i don't know what to do anymore

I really feel like crap. Tears are falling down my cheeks again, and honestly, I'm tired, and once again, I am having a hard time breathing. (huhuhuhu) I'm tired of mah life na. Why can't it just end?!? I want to be happy, no more pain, no more sadness, no more depression and no more feeling low about mahself!! That's what I can't accept. That I feel low about mahself when I know I shouldn't. What's worse is that I have no0oo one. I feel so alone, crrrraaappp. I don't know what to do anymo0ooore. I don't know how I should feel. I just hate mah life right now. I want to die!!, cryin***

2006-02-21T10:29:00.000-08:00

agree ka ba dito?!?

ANG NORTH AND SOUTH BOY

North boy: Kung gusto ka, liligawan ka.
South boy: Hindi mo alam, nililigawan ka na pala
North boy: Crush siya ng barkada mo.
South boy: Gustong makatambay ng barkada mo.
North boy: Liligawan pati nanay mo.
South boy: Babarkadahin ang nanay mo (hahaha).
North boy: Tahimik at polite kapag kasama ang pamilya mo.
South boy: Makwento at masigla kapag kasama ang pamilya mo.
North boy: First date ninyo sa nakaka-impress na restaurant.
South boy: First date ninyo ay movie tapos coffee. (tsktsk)
North boy: Bongga magregalo (ang taray ng lolo mo!! lol).
South boy: Simple pero meaningful ang ireregalo (oh di ba).
North boy: Sasama sa yo at sa barkada mo.
South boy: Isasama ka sa barkada niya.

What do you think huh, agree ka ba dito?!?

This was taken from Bianca Gonzales's blog which I got from my friend's blog (hahahaha) this is really interesting... Nakakatuwa!!

2006-02-20T20:36:00.000-08:00

i wish, i wish

Sometimes I wish I could just leave and never come back... leave everything forget everything and not want anything more.. I wish I could just go back to when I was still a kid when I didn't care about anything, didn't know about sooo much and thought of life as a big playground... I wish I could just scream and let out all the things that are making my eyes wet and making me hurt, I wish I was dumb so I wouldn't understand all the crap, sometimes I think its even better to be a retard coz they don't frikkin care about anything in the world, its the world who cares about them... I wish I could just hide forever in my room so I wont need to see what's happening outside, but then again, I know I can never get these wishes and it sucks...

2006-02-19T08:45:00.000-08:00

bored, bored, bored

Thank god that I'm still alive (Hahahaha). So what do I do today?!? Okay, I woke up early because the sun is glowing on my face (Hehehe) took a bath, and ate two slices of bread, egg and hotdogs for my breakfast. HaAaay... super, duper boring ang chubaness Lola nyo, sooo what to do when your bored?!? Go to this site! http://www.bored.com/ trust me guys. It's cool! :) And you will not get bored (that's the whole point, isn't it?!?). Omg, guys... I watched a dumb video from that site and it was sooo funny. Well, for me it was... Coz' I was bored!! (hahahaha) My goodness, that's a person YOU call bored. (ahihihhihi)

2006-02-18T23:38:00.000-08:00

my stupid bloggy (grRrr)

Hmmm... I typed an entry. Clicked Publish Post... then disappeared. And was lazy to type again, grRrrrrr... Stupid bloggy!! I hate it!! Kainis!!

2006-02-17T21:17:00.000-08:00

non-sense blah, blah's

Hey guys. I woke up at exactly 4:00 in the morning. (my gawd soo aga*) I slept at 11 last night. Arrgghh. Oh yeah, my stupid aircon broke down. Sabi nila msyado daw sobra sa gamit. (hehehehe) Then, I kept on waking and waking up. I don't know. So, when I woke up at 4:00, I went back to bed but I just couldn't sleep. (Asar* talaga) I think I would be sleepy the whole day.

2006-02-16T23:51:00.000-08:00

walang katapusang kalungkutan

Matagal na din akong naghihirap. Matagal na din akong nagdurusa. Matagal na din akong lumuluha. Nakakainis. Nakakapagod. Nakakasawa. Bakit ba ang buhay ko ay puno ng kalungkutan?! Bakit?!? Bakit?!? Kung minsan, sinasabi ko na lang sa aking sarili na hihintayin ko na lamang maubos ang aking mga luha. Pero bakit magpasa-hanggang ngayon, patuloy pa din ang pag-agos ng mga luhang ito sa aking mga pisngi. Hanggang kailan ako magdurusa?!? Hanggang kailan ako maghihirap?!? Hanggang kailan ako luluha?!? Hanggang kailan...

2006-02-15T20:36:00.000-08:00

friendship day (lol:p)

I guess today was okay. Nothing special, but I wish we didn't have scql today (hahahaha... katamaran talaga :p). Okay, I woke up at around 5:30 in the morning (too early huh!!), took a long bath, ate breakfast and then went online... I was chatting with Shun nga pala; we talked about some stuff (Hmmm... wala lang, hehehe).

Went to scql at around 1:00pm. Had a mth long test. It was okay!! Well anyway, after classes, we (Stephanie, Megan, Jhenn and I) went to Erika's place. we ate a lot, as in (bwahahaha), and then went out to buy junk foods & ice cream (hahahaha), went back to Erika's place. Then went to the roof top which was sooo astig!! Super duper saya!! we're planning on having a party there someday (hehehehehe). Megan, Erika and Jhenn had friends on the other street so they decided to shout and scream their lungs out. My gawd almost everyone heard them (hahahaha... nakakahiya). Basta ang saya namin!! (Thanks Guys!!) Then went home.

2006-02-14T23:06:00.000-08:00

why do we have to say goodbye?!

People often commit stupid mistakes and it is really understandable, people are people, right?!? Nobody's perfect. Everybody and anybody can commit mistakes but unfortunately we commit the stupid ones. Saying goodbye is one of them.

Goodbye, is it a good thing or a bad thing?!? Why do we have to say goodbye?! It is such an unfair word; it should be erased in the dictionary. If I had the power I will forbid the whole world to say the word goodbye so that nobody would get hurt.

Goodbye in the dictionary means farewell, people parting but in my dictionary -It hurts you more than anything, it hurts like hell. It hurts more than a slap in the face, a kick in the back, a punch in the chest, a cut in your finger, I hole in your stomach, a bash in the head. It hurts you not physically or mentally but deep down inside.

You know that little thing in your chest, it hurts there. When someone says goodbye that little thing shatters, breaks and crumbles until it will not be mended, until you forget how to feel, how to cry, how to laugh, how to smile, how to love. Your whole world falls apart; you have no reason to live. When you sleep you wish you will not wake up again, when you eat you wish that you would choke to death, when you breathe you wish not to breathe again, when you drink you wish you would drown. You just wish and hope with all your shattered, broken and crumbled heart that you would die immediately, that you can die that very moment he said goodbye, tama di ba?!?

"My world is shattered. Why do you have to say goodbye?" Why did God ever created that word?!? Why do you have to meet someone if you would only leave them?!? Why?!? I have so many questions but I have no answers. (hmmm... ewan labo*)

HAPPPEEE HEARTS DAY TO ALL!!

2006-02-13T23:40:00.000-08:00

i don't believe in fairy tales anymore

i don't believe in fairy tales anymore
coz they don't come true.
happy ending are never true.
and they don't last forever...

things will never be the same again, will they?!?
and magic?!?
it doesn't mean anything to me now.

i don't believe in fairy tales anymore...

because fairy tales never put me to sleep...
it just left me crying endlessly for nights and nights.
because fairy tales left me hanging on a breakable thread...
it just left me hoping and wishing for you to be the right one.

... because they're never real.

2006-02-12T13:37:00.000-08:00

wuzho0ooo... i'm back

Awww... looooong time no post. (hahahaha) My apologies. Damn I missed doing this (as in... hahahaha). Sooo what has been up with me lately?! Nagkasakit po kasi chuvaness-lola ninyo kaya matagal din ako hindi nakakapag-update. Akala ko nga mamamatay na ako eh (hahahaha charing*, oh drama na naman :p). Kaya naman namiss ko kayong lahat (sobra, pahugs nga* hehehe).

Well, anyway... I was typing a long-ass entry in Notepad while waiting for the Internet connection. Long, I tell you. And quite nice, because while typing I got the chance to reminisce and smile and actually laugh about the past experiences. And then, the computer restarted. No, I didn't accidentally push the button. The stupid computer was just too palpak talaga and since I was using Notepad, and not Microsoft Word, there was no way the document could be recovered. I was so f**king disappointed and pissed (uhm... nakakainis naman talaga eh!!). Just when I have something sensible to blog about, and just when it gets really long, it has to conveniently vanish (asar noh*, nakakabadtrip tuloy... grrrRrrrr!!).

Ito pa isang nakakabadtrip : Grabe!!! I'm sooo inis with this person... (Arrgghh!!) My gawd, she hates me and I don't know for what reason. she just like... starts making me sira sa iba. (grRrrr), sooo annoying... I mean, it's not like we're friends or anything. as in, bigla na lang she did that. I like me as me and if she doesn't like me (wala ako pakialam no). Well, that's not my problem anymore. I mean, Akala ko she was good and all, but, also, I'm really bummed about... what this person said about me... Uhmm, ewan... When my friend told me about what she said, parang... ang sama-sama ng ugali (asar talaga! I hate her!!).

2006-02-08T21:57:00.000-08:00

random thoughts

Love is blind. This doesn't mean your partner has to be ugly. It simply means you easily forgive the one you love when he/she has done something wrong. Sometimes love is too blind that you fail to see the things he/she does wrong.

Love is patient. This doesn't mean you can wait a million years for the "right person" to come. It comes with love is blind...love is patient because love doesn't easily get mad. Love is patient because in the end of the long run, love forgives...

Love is kind. This, is very literal indeed. Love doesn't seek revenge, but rather, offers a helping hand.

2006-02-07T06:15:00.000-08:00

I suddenly felt sooo ALONE :(

2006-02-06T08:59:00.000-08:00

life is soo unfair

Why is life so unfair?!? Arrgghh... when there is colour there is black and white. When there is happy there is sad (huhuhuhu). When there is courage there is anxiety. There is a winning moment and a losing one too. When you laugh there are times when you cry. When you can be so hyper there are times when you can't even stand up... Why is life like that?!? Ang gulo-gulo noh?!? HaaaAaay... I wish everything could be white, wherein everyone is happy happy, everyone would have the courage to stand up when they fall, laugh their hearts out and be as crazy as anyone can be... I wish life is like that... "crazy but cool"

"LUHA AT KALUNGKUTAN"(ganyan ang buhay ko!!)

2006-02-05T23:37:00.000-08:00

haaaAaay... boring life :(

I loved today's weather: Gloomy. Clouds took over the sky, and the sun was not much in sight. Wish the weather could be like this almost every day... Well anyway, What do I do today?!? I woke up super early today and I'm now having Chips Ahoy Chocolate Chewy cookies with Cold Chocolate drink for mah breakfast. It's perfect (weird ko no?!). Okay I stayed at home the whole day. Kaya hayun nag-online na lang ako, then had a short conversation with Kuya Paulo, Russell and Erika.

Then after that I watched A Cinderella story with Kaycee... Actually, it was my second (2nd) time, and it was so nice!?! Chad Michael Murray was so hot! Pagkatapos ko manood, I lie in my bed naman... then think about stuff, about love and life... and that's not a good thing because when I think about those stuff, it makes me sad, and when that happens, I get all senti talaga... lalo na kapag naiisip ko si Betcee (huhuhuhu, sniffff... snifff :sad face:). Hmmm... enough na nga toh mauuwi na naman ako sa drama nito eh!! (pahinga muna ang mata kaiiyak!!) Ciao!!

2006-02-04T19:13:00.000-08:00

super, duper badtrip

Today was full of s***. I woke up and I didn't feel good. Like I didn't sleep at all... Then when I was at sql, I looked like a tired piece of s***... I slept kinda early and I just don't understand why I didn't feel like I did. (HaaaAaay... naku ang labo* ASAR!!)

Heto pa isang nakakaasar... I lost my sun sim card!! (grRrrrrr) actually not, cause I know I really placed it here beside the computer eh!!? Pero pagtingin ko wala na sya!! (ggRrrr). Malas, Nakakabadtrip, Nakakainis!!!

2006-02-03T18:46:00.000-08:00

broken angel

I smile a fake smile
so no one can actually see
that my pain is over whelming
that I could never leave

If any one were to ask,
I would have to say
I'm a broken angel
or I could fly away

No one has ever noticed
my eyes are always filled with tears
my heart is always breaking
and I don't want to be here

I don't think I'm an angel
for I don't believe in it
but in some ways I'm a BROKEN angel
hoping to fly away

I spread my wings
I try to fly
but my hope
has already died

I let tears fall
I yell to someone
I reach out my hand
I run down the hall

No one chases after me
no one screams my name
I'll try to fly
If my wings don't burn

I'm a broken angel
I WANT to fly away

This broken angel
has almost died

I can't go to heaven
I've sinned too much
I can't go to hell
I've sinned not enough

I'm a broken angel
I need to fly
THIS broken angel
has pretty much died...

2006-02-02T22:47:00.000-08:00

ka-ta-ka-wan chuva(nice title ayt? hahahaha)

What happened today?!! Hmm... We (Erika, Stephanie & I) went to Meg's place for a little get together. It was fun!!! Tita Nena (Meg's mom) cooks a lot of food and it was delicious, wah grabe, para na akong piggy tignan (hahahaha). Pagkatapos kumain, we went to Meg's room nman, wala lang chizmax lang (hahaha, tsismisan :p).

Well anyway, let me change the topic. Do you ever wonder why we have dreams?!? Hmm, well I'm wondering still. Most of the time we dream of something that we think of before we sleep, sometimes it's just not related in what we're thinking of, and surprisingly sometimes we don't even know who that person is in our dreams. Sometimes your dream is just so good that you don't want to wake up anymore. Sometimes it's just scary that you want to wake up and never sleep again. Our dreams that night is the first thing that we think of the next morning. When it's so good to be true you just can't stop thinking of it and hope that it will come true. Someday, sometime, somehow. I just hope mine will... haaAaaay... may nami-miss tuloy ako (~~: sad face :~~)

2006-02-01T21:31:00.000-08:00

really hate yah (poser)

Oh damn!! Something happened sooo I have to retype my post again. Arrgghh. I hate it!! Well anyway, nothing really happened today. I was with Stephanie, Jhenn, Meg and Erika after sql. Jhenn and I talked about a lot of things. We blabbed for two (2) straight hours. (hahahaha, addict!!). I had a really good time sharing some things with her.

Hmmm... moving on to another topic, haaay I had a headache for quite a while. That's coz I tried to sleep in the car but because I wasn't sitting next to the window, I couldn't sleep for more than a minute. HaaAaaay... I really need to get some sleep!! (antok tlga ako* yawn)

(waaAaah!! angg payat ko ng tignan, erRr i hate it!! hahaha)

Oh, I forgot to tell you, I have a freaking poser. Not really a poser kind that poses she was you but someone who steals your picture and pretends it was her. (Yeah man, I hate those!!) My friend saw one of my pictures!! Akalain mo iyon sa dami-daming magaganda picture na pede steal, (hahahaha, sabay ganun eh no), eh kasi nman bakit pixies ako pa napili di ba?! (hahahaha), ang panget-panget ko!!

2006-01-31T22:26:00.000-08:00

sfogs, trippin'

It's one in the morning. I'll let me be an insomniac today, its Tuesday anyway. I can't sleep. I've been thinking about some things. I'm confused and depressed. Aww... this is sooo s*cky. I don't know if... And if. And if...*sigh

Moving on : I just finished my HW a while ago... and it's sorta easy!! (hehehe). I'm recently surfing sfogs.com too, full of ghostly pictures, true ghost stories and some eerie things err... stuff too (tsktsk), really it spooked me a lot, but the site is kinda interesting!! Just search for that website and enter if you dare don't be afraid!! (hahahaha). I'm really like I'm ~~bored~~ ummm... no actually I'm really in the fun. By the way sorry guys sa post ko kahapon (sa ginawa ko), hindi ko na kasi alam gagawin ko eh (huhuhuhu). Maraming-maraming Salamat din sa mga advice ninyo. (touch ako, hehehe). Hey maybeh I gotta leave. Bye!! Miss you all guys!!

2006-01-30T18:21:00.000-08:00

mah suicidal attempt

Just want to share you what had happen to me this early morning. I was attempting to suicide. I feel sooo lost and sooo depressed about what had happen in my life nowadays... problems, problems and problems... I'm sooo into my problems, little by little, it destroys me and lose myself...

Alam nyo I know that it's not right but I really suffered and my loneliness eat me...I don't know how to ease the burden that those f*ckin' problems brought to me...

Siguro if you know the reason behind all this I expected to hear from you na "para yun lang?" but if maintindihan nyo lang sana ako. Kasi before I heard same story as mine and yun ang reaction ko sabi ko "hello! it's not the end of the world para gawin yun?" pero if you were in the situation, you will know... pero I think it also depends on handling problems, maybe I'm sooo weak. actually, these passed few days, I always talked to God and prayed na sana kunin na nya ko...

I feel sooo sorry for myself... now, I cried a lot. a piece of advice, wag nyo kong gayahin... see things positively. But now I'd tried to move on and and put back the pieces of my broken self.. pray for me and wish me luck!! Thanks!!

By the way... advance HAPPEE BERTDEY TO DANNETH!! yeah birthday nya kahapon, and good news guys nagbalik blog na sya!! Pls. visit her site!!

CLICKIEE HERE

2006-01-29T20:14:00.000-08:00

i hate myself, i hate life

I'm tired of life... like right now I want to die so0o bad... I may sound stupid but yes, It's true, I want to die so bad!! I'm just sick of dealing with mah life. I just don't feel like dealing with it, (Arrghh), I hate it!! I really don't know what's wrong with me but deep inside me I just want to die. I'm just so stupid... as of now, I hate myself and I really hate mah life. (huhuhuhu)

2006-01-28T23:56:00.000-08:00

Super, Duper Tired

Buhay ko'y puno ng lungkot, at problema. Magulo*.

Gusto ko nang mamatay!!!

2006-01-27T21:58:00.000-08:00

hello new layiee

Wuzho0oooo, I just changed my layout na, I kinda got tired of the old Circle Theme/Layout na kasi eh (hahahaha). Kaya hayun I decided to go for a simpler one this time (tsktsk), but I'm still keeping the peeeennnnk and gray colors (hahahaha)

Okay... Nothing much happened today. Sql = lots of work work work and work... I'm super duper tired right now and I can't organize my thoughts. I'll be back later to blog. (hehehehe)

2006-01-26T23:58:00.000-08:00

sick of d' routine of everyday lyf

HaaAaaay... I don't feel well... not because I'm sick or whatever, probably I am, I'm sick of the routine of everyday life... that s*cks. That's what makes me feel sooooo blue right now... I don't know what has been going on, I may flash that same old funny, happy look I always had yet deep within me, I'm hurting for a reason I may never know or that I may not have any other way of feeling...

Life has become one big routine for me... and I'm slowly and painfully losing my grip on sanity... I can't tell for certain what I want... but I'm definite that I no longer need another day of the same old routine...

I think I need a lifestyle change...No; I need something, rather, someone to make my life more exciting. Hindi... I need to get rid of the routine, Uhmm... maybe not... so, Uhmm... I need to have that control of my life and run it the way I want it... but on second thought, am I not in control of it in the first place?? Am I not running it exactly the way I want things to happen?? Hmm.. ewan :( (gulo*)

HaaAaaay ano ba yan... sometimes, life can pretty much convince me that it holds me and has that control that I should have a grasp on...

2006-01-25T20:02:00.000-08:00

magulo ang isipan

Aaarrrrgghh... ang sakit sa ulo, bakit ba ganito?!? Kung ano-ano ang tumatakbo sa'aking isipan (grrRrr... nakakainis). Ayoko na!! Isip ay pagod na, nais magpahinga. HaaAaay... kahit sandali man lang sana, utak ko ay pumayapa... (huhuhuhu).

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2006-01-24T22:09:00.000-08:00

i have no idea what to blog

I'm sooo tired and I'm not joking. I feel like dying already, but I'm still blogging (hahahaha). Okay, what happened today?!? Went to sql at around 7:00am, then after sql stayed for awhile at McDodie (McDonalds :lol:) Then went to Stephanie's house. I was supposed to go home early, but Stephanie corrupted my mind (hahahaha). I'm joking Stephanie if ever your reading this (hahahaha). Went home around 6:40pm.

HaaAaaay ang lamig dito, umuulan kasi eh, well honestly, I like it when it rains... I remember the times when I'd stay inside the house just looking at the tiny raindrops falling by our window... it brings me a lot of childhood memories... pero ayoko ng umuulan kapag nasa labuyan ako (hahaha... nakakatamad maglaboii kapag ganun :p). Ummmm... tama na nga toh. Yeah, that's pretty much it. Wala na akong maisulat, ay meron pa kaya lang tamad na ako (hahahaha). Ciao!!

2006-01-23T13:14:00.000-08:00

kwentong jeepney(warning: tagalog and long post ahead)

Kanina dahil sa ako'y walang magawa, nagpasya akong bumalik at humiga muli sa aking silid tulungan, at dahil sa wala akong magawa kung anu-ano tuloy ang pumasok sa'aking isipan. Bigla na lang sumagi sa aking isipan ang mga nakatutuwang pangyayaring aking naranasan kapag ako'y napapasakay ng jeep (hehehehe). Napakarami. Iba-ibang klase ng tao. Iba-ibang klase ng komedya ang nais kong ibahagi sa'iyo...

Case # 1 - "Aray, ano ba?"

Madalas na dialogue ng mga babaeng feeling commercial model ng shampoo kung ipatangay sa hangin ang buhok. Mga walang pakialam kahit na ang mga katabi nila ay hirap na hirap na sa pag-iwas sa paghampas ng buhok nito sa mukha nila. Kaya ako kapag di na ako makapagpigil, hinihila ko na yung buhok, sabay sorry kunwari akala ko buhok ko yun (hahahaha). At kapag sinusumpong ako, kinakalabit ko na at sinasabihan kong hindi ako kumakain ng buhok (tsktsk).

Case # 2 - "Blah, blah, blah...'

Mga taong feeling sila lang ang sakay na kung mag-usap ay dinig ng lahat ng pasahero. Nakakaaliw sila minsan lalo na't mahaba ang byahe at walang radyo yung jeep. Pampalipas oras din sila, minsan nga gusto ko ng sumabat dun sa kwentuhan nila lalo na kapag nakaka-relate ako. Pero kapag inaantok ako at di na makapagpigil tinitignan ko sila na parang gusto kong dukutin ang lalamunan nila. Ummmp... bad* ka talaga Ayeka (hahahaha).

Case # 3: - "Pakiabot lang po..."

Kapag napaupo ka ng medyo malapit-lapit sa driver, asahan mong magiging taga-abot ka ng bayad (grrRrr). Ok lang sana yun eh, huwag ka lang makaka-tyempo ng driver na may pagka-manyakis na nanadyang manghaplos ng kamay. Oh kaya naman ng driver na parang di pa ata nakakaalam na uso na ang deodorant (hehehehe). Oh kaya naman ng driver na mas malakas pang bumuga sa tambutso nya ang bunganga. Syempre wala naman akong magawa kundi ang magtakip na lang ng ilong at umurong agad kapag medyo lumuwang. At meron namang mga pasaherong sobrang bait na hindi ka pa nakakapagsalita ay kinukuha na sa kamay mo ang bayad mo. Meron din syempreng matatapang na kapag hindi mo nakuha agad yung bayad nila ay medyo itataas ang boses at may kasama pang ismid. Hay naku, pede ba wala akong kumisyon sa pag-abot ng bayad nyo ha.

Case # 4: - "Makikiusog nga po..."

Para sa mga kung umupo ay kala mo pang-dalawang tao ang binayaran. May mga babaeng kung umupo ay nakalihis, walang pakialam na yung katabi nya kalahating pwet na lang ang nakaupo. Meron din mga lalaking kung makaupo ay halos mangingimi kang tumingin sa kanya dahil sa laki ng pagkaka bukaka. Animo'y may kung anong pinoprotektahan sa pagitan ng kanyang mga hita. Kapag ipit na ipit na ako, sinasabayan ko ang pag-preno ng mama sa pag-usog. Pasensyahan na lang kung mapalakas (hahahaha).

Case # 5: - "OooooozzZzzzz..."

Wala namang masama kung matulog ka habang nasa byahe, pero sana lang walang dantayan at basagan ng bao o di kaya ay matuluan ng panis nyang laway (di ba?!). Kapag may katabi akong natutulog na, hinahayaan ko lang (syempre alangan namang pigilan ko) at kapag babagsak na ung ulo nya sa'kin, bigla kong ibinababa balikat ko para magulantang sya (hehehehe). Pero kapag cute ibang usapan na yan. Itinataas ko pa balikat ko para makahilig at ng makatulog sya ng maayos at ok lang na magka-untugan kami, malay mo magpakilala pa sya sa'akin di ba, (hahahaha... asa pa ako).

Case # 6: - "Mama, para ho..."

May mga driver na di mo mapipigilang mapamura sa sobrang tagal bago huminto na halos kailanganin mo ng sumakay pabalik sa layo ng pinagbabaan sa 'yo. Meron namang hihinto kahit na sa gitna ng kalsada mabawasan lang agad ang sakay nya. At meron ding halos mahalikan mo na yung katabi o kung minalas-malas ka ay mahuhulog ka pa dahil sa biglang pagpreno nya (grrRrrr... ang sama). May mga pasahero namang hindi pa nakuntento sa pagkalakas-lakas na pagsabi ng "para" at kumakatok pa sa bubong. Merong namang magbabayad kapag pababa na at may gana pang magalit kapag hindi agad naihinto ang sasakyan. At syempre merong mga nagmamadaling akala mo ay mauubusan ng lupa kung bumaba, (nyahahaha) kasehodang mabunggo at matapakan nyang lahat ng daraanan nya. Pero pamatay pa ring yung minsang may nakasakay akong mama na pagkalakas-lakas at paulit-ulit na sumisigaw ng "Bayad ho, bayad ho, bayad ho..." Syempre yung driver, todo naman extend ng kamay nya. Nakatingin na lahat dun sa mama na kumakatok-katok pa sa bubong ng jeep. Sabay naalala nyang "Para" pala ang dapat nyang isinisigaw. Nyahahaha... tawa ko ng tawa pagkababa nung mama! (kulits kasi eh, hahaha)

Case # 7: - "Love birds..."

Syempre pa, hindi mawawala ang mga mag-syotang kala mo may sariling mundo na kung mag lampungan ay parang mga pusang di mapakali. Libreng sine 'to, rated 18, (hehehehe) kaya lang nakakabitin din lalo na kapag nauna kang bumaba sa kanila. Meron tuloy mga lalaking 'nag-iinit' at biglang bibitaw ang kamay sa pagkakahawak sa bakal para kunwari mapapasubsob sa katabi nila o kaya naman bigla mong mararamdaman na yung siko nila nasa tagiliran mo na. Hay naku sarap sampalin ng mga ganung lalaki. Di naman sa nakikialam ako, pero wala namang inggitan... (tsktsk)

Case # 8: - "Estudyante blues..."

Maraming estudyante na nagbabasa ng libro sa loob ng jeep habang nasa biyahe. yung iba sa sobrang ganda ng binabasa ay nadadala sa kwento...'Yung nakasakay ko minsan na dalagita din katulad ko ay taimtim na nagbabasa ng "Noli Me Tangere". Hindi nya napansin na malapit na syang pumara at sa gulat na bababa na pala siya ay mahinhing sinabi sa driver "Paalam" (hahahaha). Naku, tawa kami ng tawa sa kanya, pati nga sya ay natawa rin sa sinabi nya eh.

Hay naku, ilan lang yan sa mga naranasan ko kapag sumasakay ako ng jeep pauwi. Dami ko pa sanang iku-kwento kaya lang pasado ala-una na pala ng hapon at naalala kong hindi pa pala ako nananghalihan, kaya pala kumakalam na ang aking sikmura (gutom na* ang mga alaga ko sa tiyan, hehehe). Hanggang sa muli...

2006-01-22T19:58:00.000-08:00

dramanessss

There is something terribly wrong with mah life right now but I can't quite put mah finger on it...

2006-01-21T21:33:00.000-08:00

warning: non-sense post again... (hahahaha)

My multiply won't work again. How many mode do I have to make before one actually works!! Does the internet hate me or something?!? Kasi naman my yahoo messenger won't even work right now... grrrRrrr asar* well anyway, dito ko na lang share iyong ilang pixies ko (hahahaha)

UNPRETTY-SHOTS
(piinnnnkkiisssh.. tsktsk :p) (senti-mode: soo sad... huhuhuhuh)

Opppsss... by the way belated Happeee Bertdey nga pala sa Bunso ko (CAMZ), araw nya bukas (hehehehe) I love yah bunso!!

2006-01-20T23:42:00.000-08:00

arrgghh.. nakakaasar (hahaha)

"Don't wait for things to happen because the more you wait, the more they won't happen. Things will just happen when you don't expect them to happen."

That's based on mah experience. (hehehehe) I used to wait for #1 to text but then #2 would always text, it was okay but I still wished #1 would text me. Then there was a time when I wished #2 would text but it was always #1 who was texting (hahahaha). I used to check if #1 was online but then #2 was the one online during those times, then when I waited for #2 to go online, it was #1 who was online. Arrgghh, Nakakainis. Laboness!! (hahahaha... ewan* toink). HaAaay... miss ko na ang suplada-bums (bes-irish, pums & pepita). So sad!!

2006-01-19T21:59:00.000-08:00

salamin, salamin

HaaAaaay... nothing to do, and boring ng Thursday ko ngayon (hahahaha). Well anyway... do you watch yourself in the mirror while brushing your teeth?!! I do. (Hehehehehe) So many funny facial expressions, makes me laugh when I think about it. (Silly huh! hehehehehe) Wala lang naalala ko lang iyong ginawa ko kanina!! (hehehehe)

Oppsss... by the way thanks nga pala kay JENPRINCESS ginawan nya ako ng napaka-cute na buttonskie (ahihihih, ang sweet) thanks Jen!! Love yah girl!! Hugs!!

2006-01-17T19:59:00.000-08:00

hold on

In our everyday life to smile and to be happy is not that easy all the time. Sometimes we really can't resist being sad because of trials in our life, making us feel stress and weak, and the thinking of why is it like this? Every time, now and then? Like you still don't have a solution in this problem and other one comes up... Ohwww how hard to carry all of these by my shoulders. But then I when I used to think more widely I started to imagine those people who have heavier problem than me, I realized everything has a reason. Yes! Papa God has reason of everything that is happening, these problems are just Papa Jesus trials for us to be strong. I know he'll not going to give us anything that he knew we can't handle. We just have to HOLD ON and keep on believing in him, in his word and our strong faith to him. Still I'm glad my mine, family and friends are still there... Keeps in bringing me up especially Papa Jesus thanks for still embracing me of your graceful warm touch, keep blessing us as we need it and as how you want anything to be. Help us to be more closer to you Papa Jesus.

Still having a smile makes our face more better. Remember trials our there not to bring us down but to make us strong just... hold on... and have faith in Papa Jesus.

SHARING PIXIES

(oh di ba gurl na gurl ang bruha hehehe)
PLUG: Please visit mah friends bloggy naman po oh (CLICKIE HERE) Thanks!! Miss yah all guys!! Ciao!!

2006-01-16T23:46:00.000-08:00

super,duper bored

I am so bored...
I am super bored...
I am super super duper duper bored...
I am super super super duper duper duper bored.

Boredom is killing me...
Boredom is really killing me...
Boredom is really really killing me...
Boredom is stil really really really killing me...

HaaAaaay... Ang boring!!

2006-01-15T21:26:00.000-08:00

when to love and when to let go

Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong. It is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there. You'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a "right person" for you...and don't rush things coz somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you.

Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it. Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship.

You're right, there's no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with it. If you already knew that you're too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don't give it a try. You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made.

If you knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it. You'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell for the rest of your life. It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings.

Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself.

We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, it's just pity.

We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life. We misunderstood; it's just that we're too much dependent on them.

We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave, no one would accept us and our past. We are misleading by our own ideas, it's just insecurity.

But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can buy or beg. It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart. You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come. It can make you the happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it can also make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy.

"When you lose someone... and you think you were the one who loved most, between the two of you... he lost more. For someday you can love someone the way that you loved him...But he will never be loved again the way that you did."

2006-01-14T23:59:00.000-08:00

goodbye

I'm angry, scared, and sad all at the same time.
Trying to get threw the day without him on my mind.
I want him to know that my feelings for him are real.
Can't imagine another day without him by my side.
We were on such an amazing ride.
It's hard to let go but I know deep down in side.
That it's time to say GOODBYE...

2006-01-13T22:10:00.000-08:00

friday 13th, nakakatakot daw?!??

Today is Friday 13th, araw daw ng kamalasan o sumpa sabi ng iba (totoo ba iyon?!) Well, anyway what's new?!? Okay... let me just tell yah what happened the whole day! I woke up at around 5:30 in the morning, took a bath, ate breakfast then headed to sql. HaaAaaay... I'm looking really crappy today. I didn't get much sleep that's why mah eyes looked dopey, mah friends even thought I was high! (nyay bangag* ang panyet... hahahaha). Hmmm... I have nothing too important in mah mind right now... only that I'm very thankful that we do not have any HW this weekend (wuzho0oo!! Thanks god!! hahahaha).

After sql: I was suppose to go malling with Erika, Stephanie and Meg dapat eh, but I didn't go. Nabasa ko kasi iyong txt ni Bes sa'akin eh, and I think kailangan nya ng huggy ko (I mean... karamay) kaya ayun I decided to go home early na lang. When I got home, nag-online agad ako, we talked about her problem and some stuff, hay sana matapos na iyong problem nya noh?!?

Right now, I'm really pissed of... mah multiply is acting pretty weird today (hahahaha). I can't upload photos, I don't know why... hay naku tino-topak na naman. (hahahaha).

Thank you nga pala kina Jezzy and cuzin Kariza, featured ang bloggy ko sa site nila, natouch ako dun huh (hehehehe... love yah girls!!). !! Ummm... gottah go na po, I have nothing to write/say na din eh, oh by the way, I just want to apologize to those blogs that I haven't visited for a long time, don't worry guyz, you'll hear from meh soon!! Thanks sa mga nag-tag & nag-comments... Ciao!!

2006-01-12T14:35:00.000-08:00

ligaya dulot ng ating kabataan(msarap maging bata?! at balikan ang nkawilihang laro nun)

Napapangiti ako pag aking naaalala noong tayo'y mga bata pa... saya at tawanan ang dinulot natin sa ating kalsada, mga panahong yun na wala tayong muwang sa mga nangyayari sa ating kapaligiran, basta ang sa atin makapaglaro lang tayo kasama ang mga kababata.

Nagmimistulang peryahan ang ating mundong kinagisnan, sa kokonting sandali ang puting-puting kasuotan ay parang nilublob sa putikan, ang pagtatampisaw sa ulanan kahit mamura tayo ng ating mga magulang. Umaakyat sa puno ng aratiles at nagbabatuhan, nagkakanda hiwa sa talas ng lata ng tumbang preso at walkie talkie noong araw. Uuwiing duguan at may sugat dahil sa patintero at habulan. Namimitas nga natin noon ang gumamelahan ng kapitbahay at sanga ng puno ng papaya para sa ating paggawa ng bula. Ang chinese garter na gamit natin ay galing nga pala sa salawal ng tatay natin, wala tayong laruan noon dahil mahirap iyakan sa ating mga magulang... isang kahig at tuka ang ating pinagmulan, kayat kailangan gumawa ng paraan para tayo ay maging masaya...

Subalit ngayon iba na ang ating ginagalawan, naglipana na ang mga arcade at computer shop. Kahit mahal ang playstation at xbox pilit nating bilhin para makahabol sa takbo ng uso sa atin. Hindi magkamayaw sa dami ng koleksyon ng mp3 mo sa cellphone, sumala pa sa tamagotsi cyber pet naman ang pinagkakaabalahan mo.

Nakakagulat lamang kung ating iisipin sa konting panahon ay biglang nagiba ang buhay natin, naglalaho na rin ang mga batang alam ang mga larong lansangan... dumaan at lumipas ang mga teknolohiya ng bansa hindi ko pa rin maipaparis ang lungkot at ligaya na dulot ng ating kabataan...

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2006-01-11T23:34:00.000-08:00

grrRrrr... kakainis. i feel soo helpless

After Sql, bago umuwi I went to Pasig Catholic Church to prayed in the middle of mah praying I noticed this poor old man in front of me, he have a skin disease, his feet became so large, (kawawa naman) I know how painful it is to me I saw it in his eyes, his begging for food or money that time, nagkataon nman wala na ako kaperahan, (kainis*) I feel so helpless because I can't do anything instead I proceed praying and include him in it, haaAaaay... I can't erase the old man in mah mind I hope one of these days someone who has a good heart can help him to go get off that illness, such painful. Ohh... I realized, that we still so much thankful for having our family and friends with us, maybe sometimes their not there to be with us but we can always be there for them if we want, they'll be so happy to know someone's concern, and taking good care of them as what we can feel vice versa. How nice it is the feeling when you know you made someone happy by helping or being with them when they need you...

As I remember when Papa Jesus, washes and wipe the feet of his apostles using his both hands... he told them that what I did to you is what you have to do unto others. Helping and appreciating one another.

Treasure everything to be treasured... Be thankful for everything we had. Papa Jesus is everywhere... watching us. Always!!! I love you guys and thanks for everything.

2006-01-10T21:59:00.000-08:00

what if life is perfect?!?(dramaness)

Madaming beses ko na naitanong iyan sa aking sarili. At madalas, nasusundan iyon ng sunud-sunod kong pangangarap habang nililikha sa isipan ko ang isang perpektong mundo. Iyong bang tipong nakatira ako sa isang paraiso... na lahat ng naisin ko, naroroon. Iyong bang talagang wala na akong mahihiling pa. At iyong mahal ko, mahal rin ako. Walang ibang hahadlang kahit na ang nakaraan. Kahiit na ang alaala.

Pero, hindi naman ganun ang buhay sa mundo natin diba?!. Minsan iyong bagay na ninanais mo hindi napupunta sa yo. minsan yung pinapangarap mo, hindi natutupad. At iyong mahal mo, may ibang minamahal... (ouch*) yun na siguro ang pinakamasaklap.

Malungkot kung iisipin. Nakakapanghinayang!! Pero ito ang buhay. Ito ang mundo. Hindi ito isang pumpon ng mga fairy tales na ang bawat kwento ay may happy ending...

2006-01-09T23:15:00.000-08:00

life is too short

Wuzho0ooo... it's time to update (hahahaha). Okay, sooo its sql tomorrow, haaAaaay... I'm really not in the mood to go to sql pa (hahahaha, katamaran tlga!). Sooo whatttt happened today?!? I woke up too early today, just took a bath and then ate breakfast... while eating; Jhudel called and told me that his friend Peter has died... (how sad) cancer daw ang kinamatay, waAaaah at age of sweet-sixTEEN, oh mah gosh!! His mah friend also, so0oooper bait noon, naalala ko tuloy kapag natutulog iyon dito sa house, wala kaming ginawa kundi magkwentuhan! (mamimiss ko iyon). So, to anyone who has read this, please pray for him... Thanks!!

Hmmmmm... Anyway, I'm just stayed at home the whole day. grrrRrrr... ang booorrriiing (hahahaha). I keep forcin mah mom to go with me and watch a movie, kaya lang tamadski si mader. Huhuhu... taong bahay ulit, (hahahaha), kaya ayun I went online na lang, then I chatted with Pepita (ceejoy). HaaAaaay... I love that girl sooo much!! Miss na miss ko na kayong tatlo (si Pums (gee), IKAW, and Bes-Irish). Naka-chatted ko din pala si Bes, we talked about her first love & her crush (saka iyong mga gf ng mga iyon, hahaha) ang bad namin... uhmmmm palo... toink*.

By the way please visit mah friendz blog nga pala here --> http://www.xanga.com/aaanneninicooo (Welcome back siz ANNE oiisstt namiss kita huh, tsktsk)

2006-01-08T22:08:00.000-08:00

aaarrrgghhh... pissed

There have been a lot of things I've wanted to post here, kaya lang kanina tinopak ang phone namin. GrrrRrrrr. There's something wrong with it so I can't surf the net, and update on mah bloggy tuloy. (hahahaha) , Pero ngayon okay na sya, wala na syang topak... in a good mood, actually (hahahaha). Uhmmm I'm not in the mood for a long entry right now, Try ko mamaya. (hahahaha)

2006-01-07T20:28:00.000-08:00

non-sense entry (hahaha)

Hmmm... I' am in the front of the computer again, I couldn't find anything better to do so I decided to update na lang (hahahaha). I woke up at 7:00 o'clock in the morning, watched some music videos (sa myx, hehehe), ate champorado for my breakfast, and then went online (ang aga noh?!? hahahaha). Erika was online too, so we chatted for awhile, ayun agang chikahan (tsktsk). After lunch: we (Jen & I) went to Erika's place, we watched King-Kong (di-vi-di, hahahaha), Naomi Watts is such a hottiiieee, the movie was good, actually napanood ko na iyon eh nkijoin langako, para masaya at may magawa (hahahaha). Got home at around 6ish, then online ulits (hahahaha). Hay miss ko na sila pums, pepita, bitoy and bes. (paramdam naman kayo, hehehe) Oist may share nga pala ako sa'inyo nakakatuwa ito (tsktsk)

GIRL + BOY =???

girl ganda + boy gwapo = using each other for display
girl ganda + boy panget = boy dami pera ganda kotse
girl panget + boy gwapo = girl yaman
girl panget + boy panget = no choice

Kulits noh?!? (hehehehe) okay, I have to end this entry. I hope you had a great time reading this (hahahaha, asa pa ako). Hmmm, thanks for those who gave me comments in my previous entry, at sa lahat na din ng nag-tag!!

2006-01-06T22:02:00.000-08:00

just an ordinary fridae'

I can't get mah hand off this freaking keyboard; it is pushing/forcing me to write something here in mah blog (hahahaha). I feel soo weird right now (tsktsk). Okay, whattt did I do today?!? I woke up at around 6:20 in the morning, just took a bath, then ate breakfast; I had 1 slice of bread, hotdogs, and cold chocolate drink, soo yummy (hehehe), while I was eating I was watching cartoon network, yeah iluvit (hahahaha, astig*).

Well, anyway nothing much happened today, it's just an ordinary Friday I was suppose to go malling with Erika and Stephanie this afternoon but I didn't go, tinamad po kasi ako eh (hahahaha, ganda ng reason noh?!?), isa pa wala akong kaperahan (tsktsk)

Hmmm... I'm getting addicted to the nina's song "stay with me", oh yeah it's good, if you haven't heard it yet, I suggest you download it or mas maganda bili ka na lng cd nya (nice idea ayt?!! hahahaha), basta ang ganda nun song (tsktsk). Thanks nga pala sa lahat ng nag-tag at ng leave ng comment (hehehe) loveyah all guys!!

2006-01-05T21:50:00.000-08:00

new blog syt, new story of mah lyf

Hello Guys!! I'm back!! (hehehe), pahugs* nga (tsktsk), wala lang namiss ko lang kayong lahat (ahihihih). Okay, Whattt happened today?!? I woke up sooo early today, para lang maayos ko itong new bloguurr ko, medyo sinipag kasi ako ngayon eh (hahahaha). Then I chatted with mah Bes-Irish. Around 3ish went upstairs to watch The Notebook. Lovely movie, made me cry. (dramaness na nman, haahaha), Shower at 5ish... then online again (hahahaha) sarap ng buhay noh?!! Oo nga po pala paki-change na lng po ung link ko sa mga bloggiesss nyo (hehehehe) Thankz!!